Came home, ate birthday cake for nobody's birthday.
Talked to an old friend from college. God, such jailbait. Me- "Did you even get anything out of that English class?" Him- "Yeah. I got your number."
Felt sad after I spoke to him. He's just not D (he shall not be named). So I called the special boy at like 3:30 in the morning. He actually picked up. I really wanted to talk to him, but he said I should try calling in the daytime. That pissed me off. I said I would if he ever actually picked up. I should never have called him. I'm just disappointed every time, he's not reliable and yet I want so deparately for him to be there. He's just not.
My sister called and told me she got her girlfriend back and that they're moving in together. Oh, and getting married this fall. I'm so happy for them and I love them both, but it made me feel super low and sad. Rusti- "I love you. I'll fight by your side and murder any fool dumb enough to fuck with you." I love my sister, she's got my back. I wish she wasn't so far away.
I watched the Notebook and cried through the whole thing. That story was my story at one point. Except that happy ending part (not in an "I hate my life" kinda way, it just didn't play out for us). I just feel lonely and wish I had someone to cuddle me at night. That's really all I want. I'm like a 5 year old. I just want someone to hold me and pet my hair.
Went to bed at 6am and here we are. It's sunny, I feel refreshed and I go to LA in 6 days. My birthday is in 8 days. Something to look forward to for sure.
The special boy said he would call me today, but you know what? I'm not even worried about it. I'm feeling a lot of love from my friends and that's all I could ask for right now. Aelishia- "Seriously you are the love of my life. Why did you move so far away? Come get lost with me asap." I kinda want to marry this girl. <3
Edit: 2/27/10
Pics from San Jose
Liquid topaz
Reeking havoc on Target.
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